I really looked at my stomach today. It's not pretty. There are 8" of staples is the shape of a slender S(like a snake) flowing down from my navel. It looks like an industrial strength zipper. On the left, there's a few staples closing up where my PD catheter used to be. On the right, there's a tube coming out of my abdomen connected to a fist sized bulb syringe, where the blood that's leaking internally can collect and get drained out. This is a lot to visually take in.
My red blood cell count is down, my white blood cell count is up. I am anemic still. I get a blood transfusion. Everyone else says I look better afterwards; I feel the same.
But the doctors say everything is going exceptionally well, and they're prepping for me to go home. My creatinine is down to 5 something and my blood sugar varies between 95 and 120 WITH NO MEDICATION EVER. I have to keep reminding myself that I don't have to do dialysis anymore AND I don't have to take insulin shots anymore. The way things are going, I wont have to take blood pressure medication either. Maybe my grey hairs will go away and my stretch marks will disappear. The windfall is pleasantly unpredictable...It's all amazingly overwhelming.
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