"Be patient, young lady!"

Saturday passes mainly uneventfully. Dr Wali and George, a now familiar resident, update me.  My labs are remaining constant, not yet improving. I know this is better than getting worse, and they seem upbeat. I want to know why I am not improving faster. Dr Wali explains that the stress of the situation, the medications being used to treat it, AND the acute illness are all contributing. "Be patient, young lady!" (I'm pretty sure he calls me this to divert my path of questions, and keep me positive--it works, for now.) I still plan to go home Sunday.

George goes over more details. I will have to keep taking Coumadin and injection-based Heparin at home, still maybe four-six weeks, tapering off towards the end. Coumadin and Heparin are not that risky for me, but pose a more substantial risk to older patients. However, I am to avoid knife fights and contact sports while taking them. I can make this sacrifice.

I will continue taking the steroid prednisone for about 3 months, also tapering off.  I have heard some horror stories about prednisone, but George assures me I am at low risk.  I will continue to have high blood sugar, high blood pressure, weight gain and maybe some other minor stuff. Fair trade off to rid myself of organ rejection.

All in all, good news. I'm tired of the hospital. Being at home means multiple trips to the lab and hospital each week, but it also means sleeping in my bed when I want to and leading a more "normal" (to me) existence. Hooray for Sunday!

Saturday night comes and the nurse lets me know I need to switch rooms to consolidate patients. We load up in a wheelchair and I wait outside the room I'm scheduled to go in. I am taken aback when what feels like a clown car full of people, including a sneezing teenager and a baby, are making their way out of my soon-to-be new home. I laugh as I watch them load up the stroller, blankets, jackets and all the other stuff required to navigate a big family. I close my eyes, imagining them tripping over themselves to get out, with their red clown noses, spotted hats and Ronald McDonald shoes. At this point, I realize how much I do feel like an organ transplant patient; there are a lot of potential threats to my health pouring out of the room.

The dad lets the nurse know they are cleaning up their stuff off the spare bed, which will be mine in a few minutes. Ugh. I have mixed feelings on this situation. They are a cute clown family and I do not want to offend anyone, but I am on immunosuppressant drugs, I can't see my own children because of the fear of kid-germ exposure, and I really want to avoid any potential risk at all.

I gauge the risk back and forth in my head. Luckily, it takes them a while to load up, so I have some time to think. Ultimately, I err on the safety first side. I share my concern with my nurse, who discreetly gets me checked into a private room down the hall. I am relieved.

They'll be plenty of time for real-life encounters in the future. I'll have runny noses to wipe, diapers to change, greasy dishes to scrub, and bathrooms to disinfect. Just not tonight. I remind myself getting back to real life, in all aspects, will take time.  For today, no knife fights or unnecessary contaminants or running any marathons.

Maybe tomorrow :)